repetition is not repetition. the same action makes you feel something completely different by the end. i repeat something and after three times, the person should react. [pina bausch] i had the…

I once had this key. It was a massive, big heavy bronze key. It was the size of my hand. It was of course, old fashioned and I found it in a old garbage dump, long since covered with deep pine trees…

Why correct advice often fails to land until experience gives it weight, and why useful advice needs the scar, the context, and the cost behind the lesson.

If my verbal self-reports are constitutive rather than documentary, accuracy is the wrong goal for introspection. Coherence is.

personal growth requires change and sacrifice. when you grow as a person, you start losing parts of who you thought you were. (you have to!) as a great bearblogger said, "authenticity will…

AutoDescriptor: Added page description via AutoDescriptor bot I read a recent comment by someone describing their book that instantly turned me off reading their work despite the fact that I'm a…

We’re searching here, trying to get away from the cut and dried handling of things all the way through—everything—and the only way to do it is to leave things open until we have completely explored…

The Autumn of the Patriarchs One common and inaccurate picture of change assumes this thing so obvious, so potent in the present, will just continue to expand and the future will be like the…

I don't want to turn back time anymore lately all I wish is for it to pause to stop slipping through my fingers like sand spilling away like water I wish I could bottle up these moments of joy and…

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July 2025 The honeymoon is over. The first draft was a thrill. Now, it's a tombstone in the ‘review’ folder. Here’s how you ship: 1. Slay the Enemy. Your enemy is fear. You feel it now. A tightness…

Staring into the Void - by Myles Marino

I’ve spent the last year fixated on how similar writing books is to distance running. If you treat the task as a singular thing, it can be overwhelming, whereas if you chunk it up into…

A few days recently where I found myself unable to think through a problem that was, objectively, pretty straightforward. The thinking was just muddled. In both cases, all it took was a good night of…

Twenty-six years, same route. You get to know the faces. Maureen with her tupperware. Terry, always nearly late. Sandra in her orange coat. What I didn't know - not until the day my heart stopped -…

I say this with love

Hear me out. I think you'll agree.

Why Continue? For decades, modern Western society operated on a powerful assumption: human beings are unhappy because they are constrained. Too many rules. Too much repression. Too much tradition.…

The universe doesn’t care about your to-do list. It doesn’t care about your anxieties, your ‘somedays,’ or the meticulously crafted excuses you whisper to yourself in the…

The truth shows up early. You show up late.

Filed under: Spectacle Psychology / Emotional Traffic Division There’s a strange instinct people have around chaos. The moment something happens: voices rise heads turn movement slows Everybody…

facing dawn's time as if you were a windmill is just about the brightest thing you can do when you're doing things, becoming industry and stepping in sync with evolution out of the outside in your…

At 12:45, you're too late. What I suggest you do now, my friend, is blow the smoke off the water. Examine your face closely in the broken mirror. Look for the image of a lost soul, that thing that…

You can't hope to understand something unless you put the work in.

I spend a lot of my days in words. Code reviews. Slack threads. 1:1s. Docs. Blog posts like this one. Words are the medium of my work, my relationships, my thoughts. They’re also how I make sense of…

It might just be that I'm getting old, but I appreciate what I've had to struggle for.Back in community college my brother and I attended a few semesters together. In one English class, a…

a polycausal theory

Thought leadership got cheap. Thinking didn't.

Lead or conform. The two look like types of people but work as modes of action, and most of us move between them without noticing. To lead is to act first, set direction, and accept the friction of…

This is part writing experiment, part therapy homework. These words reflect the world as I see it and what I value as an individual. Please enjoy, but more importantly, reflect on your place in the…

This article proposes that formal writing is about form, not seriousness or propriety.

Especially now, when it is a status quo that everybody can do anything one prompt away. I have been bothered for a long time about the notion of "it will take only five minutes". It always made me…

Measurement isn't neutral observation — it's a factorization commitment. Knowing where the cut was made is also information.

Micah Nathan : Writing, I told them, isn’t supposed to be easy, and of course it can be tedious but that doesn’t make it rote. Writing isn’t just the production of sentences – it’s the training of…

Consider an opportunity to join a secret society of brilliant, likable, highly-talented individuals. You can trust implicitly that if they say they’ll do something, they’re good for it. If you need…

A few thoughts on how the modern economy has stopped rewarding people who know what they are doing, and started rewarding people who know how to look like they do.

Some hauntings may be pressure waves; the fear is still real.

(This is a piece I wrote that will be part of a larger collection. Hopefully. I know there's no way to get feedback from people here but hey, enjoy!) I almost made it. He almost loved me. She almost…

"The only thing that burns in hell is the part of you that won't let go of your life: your memories, your attachments. They burn 'em all away. But they're not punishing you. They're freeing your…

Every action decays. Every. Single. One. You build a house? Dust accumulates. You write a program? Bugs multiply. You speak a word? It’s distorted, forgotten, or weaponized. This isn’t…

What people mean by 'you need to think more strategically.

I was talking to my mother last week about the books she's currently reading. I don't remember how we got started on the subject, but it doesn't matter. One of the books she's currently reading is…

Pessimism has its charms, chief among them being the reduced likelihood of disappointment. Even on the diminished scale of an individual life, utopia is toddler-level delusion. I still remember the…

Daring to act differently is not easy, but it's the only way to a fulfilling life.

When the friction of execution goes to zero, the demand on our orchestration goes to infinity.

📺️ Why toxic positivity is making us miserable When I got cancer, people often told me that everything happens for a reason, and what they meant was that I will learn important lessons that will…

two-facedgod:I know you miss home, but try to remember everything this world has to offer - take it from a god who’s been on this planet since the beginning. We’ve got thunderstorms, city…

A lot of people demand way too much evidence for things before they will adjust their views. Some of this is related to a desire for certainty, rather than a probabilistic view of the world. But you…

We hold onto the weirdest nonsense for the longest time.